The City

I have been thinking lately what a difference there is between life in the city and life outside of it. Ironically, I just had the most positive, non-city-like experience this morning, to counter all the expected negatives that are here like smog and overstimulation and no trees.

I saw the doctor this morning, but I didn't have to go to the doctor's office. It was a real live house call! I woke up yesterday morning with a stiff neck and any wrong move triggered a painful seizing up of all the muscles. (I never believed in the so-called colpo d'aria, a supposedly dangerous phenomenon that happens when you let in a draft, involving stiff muscles, cold, flu, sore throat. It means a "blast of air" more or less, but they act like they were hit by a train when they experience un colpo d'aria. As if a nice cool breeze could have malicious intentions....)

Instant karma for all the heckling I've done to Giovanni for coming from a wimpy culture. I walked around town like Frankenstein yesterday hoping that after a night of rest I'd be ready to run this morning. E invece no! This morning the muscles seized every few minutes and I decided I had to call the doctor because I couldn't figure out how else to deal with this probably minor problem that was unbearable. Dr. Williams is an American doctor, and helps lots of foreign students. What a relief it was to know the the doctor was on his way and I could eat breakfast and stay comfortable while I waited.

After all of this psychologically painful adjusting to "city life", I must say I never expected to experience a real house call by a doctor ever in my life. In fact, it makes me want to stop eating my apple a day so as not to keep the doctor away.

Despite this anomalous experience, I have been adjusting to city life in all of its smoggy, frenetic manifestations, sometimes with difficulty. I realize that every time I go out, I sort of need a wall of defense: sunglasses, a stony stare straight ahead, a keen eye for vomit, feces, urine, or spilled alcohol, and agility to dodge vespas, tiny but speedy cars, and to navigate through elderly women loaded down with groceries, impeccably dressed business types, women in high heels, and cigarettes hanging from every third hand. I am used to space and the smiling courtesy of strangers and feeling clean after a walk downtown. Bologna, in fact, is rather clean. There is not much trash for a place that seems to have been built for people to interact socially in a million ways all day long, and presumably create trash. They say it is cleaned every day (like most cities, I suppose) in the wee hours of the morning.

In fact, it is rather enchanting in terms of social life, and is becoming moreso as the initial feeling of overstimulation from seeing too many faces and hearing too much noise fades. In fact, Bologna has 38 kilometers (about 24 miles) of porticos. These are structures supported by columns that cover the sidewalk and offer shade from the sun, shelter from the rain, and generous sidewalk space for idle chatting, asking for directions, or eating. The map of Bologna looks like a funky bicycle wheel, with one large spoke cutting it in half (via dell'Indipendenza) and many other streets spreading like rays from somewhere in the middle to the outer boundary of the city. The tire, in this analogy, is the series of road that circles the city and actually used to be a wall for protection from the so-called barbarians.

As I venture down the stairs from my fifth story apartment, I go out with the intention of getting lost so that I can find myself by getting oriented again. Every street seems to end up in the center of the city, so with little skill I usually get found as quickly as I get lost.

As part of the intensive language course that I'm taking, I went on an excursion to see the remains of an Etruscan city, complete with an acropolis to worship the gods, a necropolis to bury the dead, and a sewer system. From there, we traveled to a small town between Bologna and Florence called Monte Sole, the site of one of many village massacres by the Nazi and Fascist forces during World War II in an attempt to eliminate partisans without having to figure out who was a partisan. Our guide, Francesco Pirini, who walked us up a paved road through oak trees and blackberry bushes, was a survivor of the massacre, and lost everyone in his family but his sister. We saw the remains of his bombed out church and the cemetery where the occupiers lined all the townspeople up to be killed. His message wasn't surprising but it was clear: Non fare la guerra. Don't make war.

Peace.

Bologna: A Beginning

Barely a week here and it feels like longer. It's been a few days of heavy overstimulation, trying to take in everything everywhere I go and look at every face and memorize every street corner so that I can get more familiar with this place. I've been here since the evening of the 24th when Gio, Giovanni's housemate, picked me up at the airport.

At my stopover in Munich I was really feeling nauseated, emotionally only (thank goodness, I can handle breakdowns but other kinds of nausea require could cause less repressable kinds of trouble). A few days before leaving I began to wonder why I had decided to study abroad and if I couldn't just forget the whole thing and go back to Santa Cruz in a month's time. The feeling escalated and peaked in Munich, and I'm glad that I resisted it until I got to Europe. There wasn't going to be any turning back at that point....

Gradually, under the care of my most gracious temporary host Gio, the emotional nausea passed and I decided things were going to be okay.

I've realized a couple of things while being here, even as brief as my stay has been so far. First, I'm living in my first real city. Well, maybe Berkeley is a city, but this is four times the size of Berkeley and five times if you count the student population. 100,000 students are enrolled here, incredibly. They're all still sort of on vacation but trickling back to Bologna pian piano as they say. (It's the oldest university in the West, by the way! Everyone likes to remind us that repeatedly.) And cities are so dirty! Or this one is. And not dirty like trash everywhere, but just touching things, walking around in sandals, I always want to scrub my feet. At Santa Cruz, I take naps as soon as I come home, wearing whatever I have been wearing all day. Here, I need to change completely, no grimy jeans are going on my cozy sheets. I am realizing how clean anything green makes things feel. There is very little green anything here, except for two parks. I want to take a shower every time I come home since I get around by foot alone. I guess 1,000 years of human inhabitance leads to a bit of buildup...

Another thing I've realized is that my big question is why in the hell I chose Italy, and why, for the past four years, I've been an italophile, as my mom called me once. That's why I called this blog Ma perche Italia?, which means "why Italy?" Maybe after a year of living here I'll either purge myself of this strange fixation on a place I had no ties to or I'll at least be able to understand that question.

So far, I've socialized at an Irish pub (the only place to find really a lot of beer, so they say, not that that's what I was after) and I've been to a festival in a nearby city called Ferrara. The festival was stellar: lots of food and a artists selling the jewelry that they had made or performing their talent. There was a really long line for one woman with a little sign that said "I'll look into your eyes and read what's on your heart" and for one euro, she would write a tiny verse of poetry for anyone. I saw people on unicycles juggling fire and a local Italian Celtic band whose members were all sporting dashing blue kilts.

It is lovely to be speaking Italian and there so many ways to practice, whether it's writing text messages on my newest appendage (my cellphone) or buying groceries.

Another thing I've realized is that I'm not going to have to give up all the things I was worried about having to give up....in particular, organic food. The Plenty Market, yes it's called that, is chock-full of the good stuff. And I'll conclude this first entry with a description of the heavenly mozzarella that I've been pining away for for four long years. Our reunion was a happy one, as you might expect, after four years of painful separatio. I bought two etti (some sort of random unit of measurement, lets say two cups worth, or anyway there five giant jawbreaker-sized pieces) of these beautiful pillows of mozzarella made from water buffalo milk. These gems of joy are an unblemished white and best eaten one or two days after they are made. They come from the south of Italy, especially Sicily, and those two cups worth cost me only 2.30 euro, a sum of roughly $3. They are very soft, and on the inside nearly creamy. The taste is mildly salty and flavorful, and I could have eaten them all without anything else. It so happened I ate some of them with tomatoes and basil and olive oil, also known as caprese.

Cheers to more adventure! Un brindisi alle prossime mie avventure!